I can feel the urges .... the thoughts of which foods would taste good to soothe my broken heart. Well, it's not really broken, but I feel little stabs of sadness, and waves of disappointment over having such a great time with my friend this weekend, and realizing, knowing, that I told myself stories and very quickly became attached to the idea of him and that those ideas are not realistic.
So anyway, which foods ease heartbreak?
Chocolate: the "go to" for many, myself included....chocolate candy, chocolate muffins, cookies, ice cream... you name it. Ben & Jerry's - the kings of ice cream - make a chocolate and mint crunch type ice cream that is incredible.
Bread: especially anything doughy. When I lived in Albany, a local bakery called Mastroianni Bros made THE BEST rolls and bread. I literally used to eat them Every. Day. For the better part of a year, I ate an entire loaf of their bread every Saturday morning.
Sweet and salty together: "kettle" type chips or popcorn is excellent for this craving.
Sandwiches: there is something unusually comforting about sandwiches. Sheetz carries two "wrap" style sandwiches in it's pre-made section that I really like.
Whether or not I choose to partake in any of these has yet to be determined. I am REALLY enjoying fitting in my clothes again - holding steady at 156. So I actually feel like I should just stick with what I've been eating. I have plenty of healthy options to keep me full.
It's unusual for me to have this many "good" days. I've been tracking my food in My Fitness Pal, keeping under my calories, and I've been losing weight - almost 10 lbs in a week due to the fact that my binges cause me to hold a lot of water.
I'm almost completely turned off by the thought of overeating. It is still an automatic reaction for me, and thoughts of Jimmy Johns swirl through my mind. But the idea of eating so much churns my stomach and not in a good way.
I think this is partly due to my clothes starting to fit better, giving me confidence to continue this mindful eating. Also partly due to the confidence of seeing my friend over the weekend. Huge ego boost for me. Huge!
My "No meat" experiment began last Monday after I was too tired / lazy etc to go to Costco to buy more chicken, and not wanting to spend the extra money to buy them at the store. So I decided to substitute protein shakes, quest protein bars, and nuts as protein sources for the week. I actually felt really good after doing that and have kept doing it, for the most part ( except a chicken sandwich Friday night, and there was some turkey on my sandwich Saturday morning ).
