Today is another fat day.
I've never been this big, this wide, or this heavy. I can’t stop eating - I just want comfort……. Why?
Because I hurt. Losing my friends
hurts my heart. It’s getting easier, in
general, but I still feel a stab of pain when I see their activity on Facebook,
or have a memory of one of them. The
meditation will help, but it’s much easier to just eat. And frankly, there is a rush, a bit of an adrenaline
rush, that comes with “cheating” and eating “bad” food.
Plus, my chest cold remains in my chest and has managed to
travel to my head, so I’m still sick, and that is not helping my motivation to
do anything. Nor is the rain…. Or, more
like torrential downpours.
Today I bought what I wanted yesterday – Pancakes and French
toast with scrambled eggs, sausage, and bacon from Expo Café… ( this amazing “breakfast
/ lunch only” café located in the building next to ours ).
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